Enough already

After just 9 minutes of filling out court papers I'm exhausted and want to go to sleep. I'm so tired of being tired. Don't get me wrong sometimes I'm tired because I've had too much fun :) but when it comes to the extended... repetitive... infuriatingly predictable bullshit of the past year it's just. not. fun. and it sucks the life right out of me :( So 9 minutes and a couple pages later I'm yawning and craving the safety that comes with being cuddled up on the couch half asleep...

However, I find myself at the point where I need to type out this lengthy statement; I know it's going to knock the life out of me for the next 48 hours and I just don't want to do it, I just want to sleep right now.

I'm going over there to the couch, just try and stop me.

too tired to show my face... 

Walk on the ocean

I feel a little shitty that I haven't taken the camera out, I mean really out, in weeks. I've got some great shots of Mike & Molly which is super; I just need to escape in an artistic way.. and soon.. but for now I'll just have to make do with carrying the camera around with me and shooting on the fly, but that can be fun too...


it's 6 hours later and there is a quiet, calm, safety that I can't quite describe... a deep sigh of relief and a smile...

somebody told me.... 

Jess needs a nap

I could seriously do without this project today; I just want to make dinner and lay around for the rest of the night. I know I know, it sounds super-lazy, but I don't care. A documentary would be perfect.

zzzzzzz

I don't wanna

It's been a slow uneventful day so far.. I did get some work done but something's missing for sure.. I guess I'll go do some running around, orders, groceries and the like. ho hum.

... hm... believe it or not, I don't have much to say today.. I know you're shocked, it's okay, take a moment..

my kitchen is super small, usually super cluttered and apparently, today, super bright 

Screwed either way

Happy medium, it's the place to be...

Have you ever second guessed yourself so much that perhaps you missed out on something great? Or rushed blindly along only to find that you have no idea what is going on around you? Of course you can always take the time to really assess a situation, think everything is great and still end up disappointed or throw caution to the wind and discover something awesome.
Life is confusing and complicated.

Have you ever said too much, without thinking, and completely embarrassed yourself? I know I have :) I've also kept too much to myself and denied people the opportunity to know what's really happening behind the scenes (I know this is hard for some of you to believe, haha, but it's entirely true)
Either way you might just be screwed.

Too much or too little of anything isn't good for you, but sometimes, every once in a while, something is just right and you know it because it just feels right; not too much, not too little, somewhere in the middle.

I'm a big fan of the middle path, (yeah, that might be a Buddhist reference, and yes, I think Buddha is the man.. I'm not going to shave my head and join a sangha or anything, but his teachings make the most sense to me).

:D

I've got clowns to the left of me, jokers to the right; here I am, stuck in the middle with you

Window to the soul

Today was/is going to be another long one.
~Work went well, no irritating interruptions today, thank goodness.
~I changed the flat to the spare tire; of all the things I've done in my life, this was the first time I've ever changed a tire by myself. I did good :) of course now Vicky (my VW) is at the garage getting a new tire.
~The chance arose to introduce a friend to the boyfriend, all my people knowing each other makes me happy.
~This is all I have to say for now.. we all know I'll have more to say later ;)

**too much irish whiskey, typing with one eye because i can't see straight, put the man to bed and finish my blog, tons of backspacing because i'm incapacitated but not really, what a goofy picture, i will SERIOUSLY want to delete all of this tomorrow, but that is not allowed*(except I make the rules so I can do what I want here)*.. the words will stay, (some of) the typed words and the spoken...  :)

holy funny face! give me a big red nose and I'd be a clown.. that's just messed up

Let it go

It's been 15 months, that sounds long enough to get the fuck over it to me. Leave me the hell alone, leave us the hell alone. Let it go, find happiness, stop thinking about what I'm doing; I deserve to be happy, you deserve to be happy... it's never going to happen as long as you're acting this way...

On another note, anyone know where the best place is to get quality tires locally?

**thank goodness for extra doses of happy**

striped socks make me happy :) today I need all the happy I can get