:/

:)

Toss in the towel?

I really don't want to do this blog anymore.

Relaxed

Aside from having lunch with Keith, today was pretty uneventful; I'm looking forward to an uneventful evening with him too :)

Wow

I don't know how many times I can try making excuses for not doing the blog on time... But I've been making excuses for more than a month, so the next month should be a breeze in the excuse department, haha! Just rest assured that I've been having a great time :)

Day 333

Can't explain the hat

My lady love ;) no-homo

No pressure, No pressure

Haha, I got myself all worked up about today.. for nothing, of course; isn't that the way it always goes?? Aside from a very cool lady last fall, it's been 6 years since I've been in the position to meet a new boyfriends family. I put myself under a lot of pressure leading up to today; what a waste of energy! haha! Everything went great; Brian and I felt very comfortable. Keith has a great family :) I'm glad we got to come along for the day.

Not today

Well, I'm a day late and a dollar short.
Had a great day yesterday at the beach with Sabrina and Brian. That girl is like a fish, always has been and Brian gathered a bag of driftwood for Keith to use in his wood burning. Later we made yummy nachos for dinner; Bean made the guacamole and I tried my hand at chocolate covered pretzels, everything was great.

Ah well

So much for keeping up, haha, oh well.. I'm having too much fun to worry too much about it.

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Yes, I'm talking about the weather ;)

What a beautiful day! Yesterday was a little too much for me, but today was perfect :) Off to have dinner with Dad and Linda.. later gaterz

yeah, I'm not really one of those barbie doll beach babes ;)
THANK GOODNESS!

The scary "L" word

Hate is a scary word.. so are the words cancer, death, terminated, LOOK OUT!! can be scary and spider (now that might just be me) but one word that can strike terror into the heart of the strongest person is Love. I'm not talking about how you love your family, children, parents or friends, I'm talking about romantic love..

~*insert terrifying music here*~ 

I know plenty of people who have been in my shoes; you've been hurt in the past, cheated on, lied to, screwed over, taken for granted and taken advantage of.. it leaves you feeling hopeless sometimes.. but then you get over it, you take the time to know yourself again and you swear you'll never let anyone close enough to hurt you.. it's easier this way.. at least that's what you -I mean I-  tell myself..

So you just go along day after day, spending time with your family and friends laughing and having a grand ol' time and one day you forget about that "L" word. You distract yourself with life, good times, good people- it's not a bad thing. Then out of the blue there's a spark and you decide to take a chance, a 1/1000 chance... and it's like lightning strikes.

Without going into too much detail.. I'm terrified. It's such a vulnerable feeling, putting yourselves out there. Knowing it could all go wrong again. Putting faith into, well.. nothing! Haha! What a crap shoot! What a leap! It's a gamble you make with your own heart on the line. Now THAT is some scary shit.

I feel naked.

Yay!

My variable neutral density filter came in today!!! I can't wait to play with it :D

yes, the last three photo entries were taken on the same day
I have no good excuse aside from being distracted by a man

Playing catch-up... again.

Things are getting interesting, that's for sure.. Interesting in a good way, for the record.

Excuses excuses

Playing catch-up yet again..

maybe there's no excuse for it.. hehe, but I don't care :)

Unexpected Insight

There are only 40 days left until this Jessness project is complete and I'm looking forward to starting a new, less frequent project, haha! I'm feeling pretty inspired lately and am playing with a few different ideas to work on. One thing will remain the same, no matter the project, I will make an effort to step outside my comfort zone and maybe I'll surprise myself... again :)

I started Jessness to overcome my extreme discomfort in having my photo taken. Have I cured myself? No. Am I less uncomfortable? Yes. It was never my intention to make this project some kind of diary, using it as a place to work through problems. However, in letting my thoughts flow through my fingers dancing over the keyboard I've often gained an understanding about myself, how and why I think and react the way I do to my surroundings. Sounds like a win to me ;)

The 15th

The 15th was a great day.
The night of the 15th was even better.
On the 15th I got off my ass and took some pictures, finally.
I got butterflies from holding hands on the 15th.

Love

goodnight

What?! I've been busy ;)

I've become a professional slacker on the blog-front and I am almost sorry about it ;) Well, a couple of months ago I was sorry, but this past month I've been preoccupied enough that I'm not sorry at all :)

This blog isn't the only thing that I've been slacking on lately; I have three books that I've been reading, one I started in December I think, they're all patiently awaiting my return.

One department that is certainly not lacking is my kitchen activity.. It makes a huge difference having someone to cook for that isn't one of my children. Hamburgers, hot dogs and mac & cheese aren't exactly my idea of eating well and I'm happy to make real, adult food for someone who appreciates it.

hehehe

Oops, forgot to post :/

Is it Saturday yet?

Couch bound

later gaterz

Wait for the bell, boys

I had such a great night, a great morning, a great afternoon and even a great evening.

The boys had fun off on their own little adventures this weekend so I was able to stop being the referee for a little while; it was great. They just got home and are acting like wild animals, haha! Silly children ;) They obviously missed insulting each other and picking fights because they started right in on it; it's a good thing it's getting close to bed time, haha!

here we go again!

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Had a great dinner with Sabrina, her friend and Keith :).. now off to enjoy a child-free evening..

I have nothing else socially acceptable to say *wink wink nudge nudge*

yup uh-huh

Live long and prosper

Happily awaiting a Star Trek original series marathon, or a mini marathon at least...

I'm not waiting for Star Trek in this photo though.. 

:)

Lately I don't know what to say, which direction to take with this blog... I could gush on and on about a certain someone.. day after day, but this blog is about me, not anyone else...

I had a stressful morning
I had a great lunch with Keith
I had a fun visit with Sabrina
I had a not-so-great time at open mic
I had fun the rest of the night with Doug and then Em though :)
I wish someone was here
I hope things go well tomorrow

in need of snuggly sleep

Trust me

Isn't life funny?
I have so much to say but don't want to bore some of you and embarrass others.
So I'll just say again that things are great lately and if you catch me smiling to myself it's not because of bacon, it's because of the cook.

I know I'm not laughing on the outside here, but trust me.. life is funny.

Monarch butterflies

big ones

*Grinning*

Spoiled with bacon lately :) I love it.

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Put it together, take it apart

Today was productive in a subtle way; finally got that Sony eReader up for sale on eBay and spent hours tearing apart my work station, getting rid of garbage and reorganizing the rest. It was quite the mess between all the fusing glass, glass gear, kiln, grinder, beads, beading gear, soldering gear, mat boards, frames, mat cutter, photos, displays, jewelry wire, sculpting wire, clay, tumbler, paints, light box, studio lights, paper shredder, sewing machine and even an air conditioner! It seems impossible that it ever all fit in that small space to begin with!

of course as soon as it was clean I started a new project and cluttered it up again, haha!

Tomorrows yesterday

Through a series of small events, I have a few hours of solitude today. I'm going to use my time wisely, crank some tunes and make some jewelry... A fresh pot of coffee and art therapy, love it..

I love Hipstamatic :)

Yesterdays tomorrow

See what I did there with the titles.. yeah.

So just to re-cap things that I haven't actually said yet ;) I met this guy a while back, he's cool, good looking, artistic, we like to hang out and the long lasting effects are smiling, singing and spontaneous butterflies, he's snuggly and makes me bacon. That is all.