Grrrrr, revised

It's time to play catch up with sleep, my couch and I could use some quality time together too, my books have been neglected; I'm tired.

*The plan today was supposed to be: work, couch, sleep, kids, dinner, couch, sleep; in that order. What happened instead? work, coffee delivery, snuggle, chat, groceries, Thai Me with my favorite guy, shopping, kids, art (I'm very happy to have made something today), pizza, revise blog... that's all there is so far... I'm seeing dishes, couch, sleep in my future :)

boy oh boy, don't I look thrilled in that photo? haha!

figures

Aggressive butterflies

What a great day so far.. the kids got off to their first day of school without a hitch.. I got to work without being interrupted by children.. and I'm enjoying the quiet for the next hour or so before they come through the door like a hurricane.. maybe I'll even take a nap :) that sounds like a plan.............

I spent most of this fine day with the dumbest look on my face, I'm sure of it. I saw people looking curiously at me while I smiled like an idiot all by myself. It was more embarrassing in the stores than it was in the car because I could be heard humming this sweet little tune and spotted every few minutes grinning like a fool at my phone; at least in the car they couldn't hear me. Today wasn't as super-fantastic as the past 11 days, but I'm still a happy camper and while there are things I'm sure I can do to stay busy for the rest of the evening, it might just suck a little ;)

Inspired by Mike (haha! sorry) a new word has been created; gaeighties. Hell yeah!

*had a few surprises this evening, none of which changed my opinion about anything*

muah!

Looking at the bright side

I woke up feeling better today than I have in almost a year, rested, refreshed, happy :) Speaking of the past year, I have something to say. Aside from all the fucktard stress, which I will be glad to never speak or think of again, I had a pretty great year. In no particular order, I finished my business degree, started pulling some income with photography, had my first gallery showing, made a New Year's resolution (declaration of independence) and did a decent job sticking with it, went out for the first time ever on St. Patrick's Day, didn't get completely bummed out when I was alone (again) for Valentines Day, I met some great people and even a pretty special guy, the guitar man, someone worth mentioning who didn't let my non-commital bull shit stop him from coming around; SO happy about that.

It hasn't been a perfect year for me or some of my friends, but everything happens for a reason so just go with it.

photo by Brian, he's pretty damned creative if I do say so myself :) That's my boy!

And I quote... myself

Do you need to provide references when you quote yourself? And what if in the quote, where I'm telling you what I said previously, I actually quoted someone else? Haha! Whatever, you all know I'm far too creative to be running around stealing words intentionally; I'll play it by ear.

I'm glad I decided to stop thinking about the fact that I was feeling quite lonely, it only made me feel more lonely. I'm glad I stopped noticing the lack of butterflies in my stomach and how my face didn't blush anymore; I'm so glad I stopped picturing myself as an old lady with no one to talk to. Thinking that way was sort of making it a reality, I was putting too much energy into what was lacking instead of enjoying life and being happy in each moment.

It seems that there are two kinds of extremes that I don't ever want to be caught in, one is the depressed, woe-is-me kind of person and the other is that woman, and to quote myself...

"I don't want to be that woman, the one who is always actively searching for the next big thing; I'm not that woman. I really believe that the harder you look for something, like love, the more likely you are to make huge mistakes about who you become involved with. On the other hand, if you just find ways to make yourself happy in other ways, everyday, your light will draw the right kind of people into your life. 


SOOO, be grateful for what you have, be present wherever you are and in all matters don't be superficial, before you know it you'll find "deep, profound, earthshaking love"."

I'm feeling great, thanks for asking :)

http://jess-workinprogress.blogspot.com/2011/08/different-kind-of-smile.html

photo by Brian

Someone worth mentioning

It's been a whirlwind of a week, a fantastic, exciting whirlwind. A week of "holy shit"s, "this is crazy"s, "whoda thunk it"s, "really?"s and "this is GREAT!!"s.

Yeah, so I'm mentioning it, ya know...

photo by Mike McCormack

Guitar man

Day 37... pajamified shirtless serenader... drinks and M&Ms... long gazes and shakey cheese

look over here

White chick

So here's the thing, it's just one thing after another that is wiping away all of my energy; nothing bad lately, I'm enjoying myself very much actually, I'm just so tired. I started noticing the exhaustion last November, it's been way. too. long. feeling like this. I just want to sleeeeeeeep but when it's time to sleep, I find other things to do.

On another note, my neighbors are having a HUGE bash tonight, a traditional celebration, that looks a lot like a bachelorette party. Dozens of beautiful women and girls, of which I only know a few; I almost don't recognize them without their hijabs (sort of like a burqa but not exactly). What a fun time!! The only problem, it's a little uncomfortable being the only white chick with a big camera in the room, haha! There isn't much English floating around the room, actually, there isn't any (unless they're talking to me)... I really wish I had hit the Arabic a bit harder over the past month ;) Doing the photography for the wedding tomorrow evening should be interesting..

blah