I'm glad I decided to stop thinking about the fact that I was feeling quite lonely, it only made me feel more lonely. I'm glad I stopped noticing the lack of butterflies in my stomach and how my face didn't blush anymore; I'm so glad I stopped picturing myself as an old lady with no one to talk to. Thinking that way was sort of making it a reality, I was putting too much energy into what was lacking instead of enjoying life and being happy in each moment.
It seems that there are two kinds of extremes that I don't ever want to be caught in, one is the depressed, woe-is-me kind of person and the other is that woman, and to quote myself...
"I don't want to be that woman, the one who is always actively searching for the next big thing; I'm not that woman. I really believe that the harder you look for something, like love, the more likely you are to make huge mistakes about who you become involved with. On the other hand, if you just find ways to make yourself happy in other ways, everyday, your light will draw the right kind of people into your life.
SOOO, be grateful for what you have, be present wherever you are and in all matters don't be superficial, before you know it you'll find "deep, profound, earthshaking love"."
I'm feeling great, thanks for asking :)
http://jess-workinprogress.blogspot.com/2011/08/different-kind-of-smile.html
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