Appreciation

In the past couple of months there have been a handful of mornings that included sleeping in followed by eggs, coffee and conversation across the table; simple enough, but they stand out to me. I said out loud after such a morning how nice it was, that it felt good to spend that kind of time together and immediately I felt thankful and embarrassed at the same time. 

I was thankful simply because I've really never had encounters like this, I know it sounds unbelievable, but it's entirely true. To just have 20 minutes to have a real conversation, no distractions, with a person that, like me, can be serious and silly in the very same sentence is a gift. 

I think the embarrassment came from the realization that in the almost 33 years I've been alive, I never had something that millions of other people have and take for granted. I felt poor in that moment, realizing for the first time I was missing something basic; it was a bitter-sweet moment. 

now this is a bad photo, haha!