I have time

My brain feels slippery today. I know I often say I'm going to take a nap, but today I mean it, no, really. Right after I finish todays blog, do the dishes, start some laundry, sweep the floor, edit photos for AOK Herbals, switch the laundry, trip over the cat and figure out dinner. By the time I'm done those things it will be dinner time so I'll cook do more dishes and at that point a nap will be foolish. So I guess I better get started.

wow, I have some serious freckles on my arms :p

photo by Brian
thanks Mike for tuning her up and making her sing :) I practiced until she was making dead sounding notes because my fingers hurt too much to hold the string to the fret... :D

Sister hazel

I'm not hungry but I'll come over for dinner ;)

photo by Mike McCormack

Words

Mondays are cool... this particular Monday has been/will be filled with laundry. cooking. cleaning. helping. smiling. drinks with friends. geekery(loving how spell check didn't do anything about that word). ice cream. crushing. laughing. noise. shopping(yuck). reading. knowing. frustration. irritation(hey, it can't all be good). thinking. doing. speaking. loving. music. mystery. photos. movies. breathing. silence.

*had to add some words... touching. tuning. snuggling. pizza. cookies. kissing. and other funniness.

yeah, it's just me :) wow, my feet look SUPER BIG!

Short and sweet

Todays post is short and sweet, making dinner and having company :) later gaterz

.... strange how I post that I'm having company and a few hours later a police officer is knocking at my door to tell me someone was spotted creeping outside my window .... just a coincidence? but wait there's more.... fucktard

photo by Sabrina

And this is clean

I'm still so tired. 

Opening night was last night and things went well, I was very happy with the turn out so a big THANK YOU to all of you who stopped in. (even those of you that were only there for a few minutes and then left without saying goodbye, you know who you are, haha) 

I know it's foolish, but now that the rush of everything in the past month is over, and I know I need a break, I feel guilty for not doing anything today. I feel like I'm supposed to be doing something productive... but I'm not going to ;) I'm going to wait for the boys to stop arguing about what movie to watch then I'm going to hog the couch and more than likely fall asleep... how's that for guilty pleasure.. now all I need is someone to bring me chocolate ;)

here is where half the magic happens, the Corner Office
photo by Brian (standing on a stool and reaching tall)

Eh.

this is me, going to bed.... tomorrow I'm going to use a photo taken today (if Shaun ever sends it to me)

great night, I'm exhausted

Have a little flash with your photo :)

Okay, so I'm not really comfortable with the whole match.com thing, I feel like I'm shopping; I hate shopping (unless it's for camera equipment, then I love it!) Mate shopping is just wrong. Besides, I'm a creature of habit, I'd rather meet someone who is already in my neck of the woods, already knows people I know, already spends time in some of the same places I do. I realize this closes a lot of doors for me but I'm okay with that. So I've already canceled my match.com subscription and in less than a month my account will be disabled.

A friend said the other day, "people don't meet organically anymore", she might have a point there, but I refuse to accept it as fact. People in the actual world, not just the virtual world, are drawn together by common interests and I prefer to meet someone that way. Case closed.


Todays pic has not been edited aside from a crop

have some flash with your photo.. haha, i need to learn to use this thing

Busy-ness and chillin'

Today might just be the most lazy shot to date, oh well..

Had a busy day at work with more than a couple drop-ins, some business, some friends, some just annoying. Helped a buddy get his photos up at North Dam and while I was there had a pre-sale :) then later had another friend drop in to discuss a possible business venture.. between business, pleasure, friends and kids it's a lot to think about but all I want to think about it lunch tomorrow, haha!

chillin' watching Astro Boy on the iMac

Shout out to Germany!

I am loving the weather today; feels like fall, the season of soups and chili, crisp air and snuggling :) I think if I don't get to snuggle soon I'll go mad, MAD I TELL YA! I am now accepting applications for snuggle partners, haha! I'm just kidding... sort of ;)

I'd like to take a moment to thank those of you that read this disorganized place for me to ramble on about whatever pops in my head; in just 27 days there have been hundreds more hits here than my other blog, http://jess-workinprogress.blogspot.com/, which I've been writing for years. And a special thanks to the one individual outside the U.S. who reads, thank you 'Germany' :) hi! how are you?

Okay, I'm going to go play catch up on house work... after all, I don't want to have to do an entire 'spring cleaning' when the right snuggler shows up, haha!

i don't like snuggling with the cat... she sheds

Greenery

okay, I don't really like todays pic, but there it is anyway... I'm tired

I think it's funny how my eyes change colors.. they can be brown, green or any sort of strange looking combination.. today I would say 98% green.. the other day there was more brown.. just an observation..

I'm going to get to bed much earlier for the rest of the week, I swear.. I need some extra rest, so movies, jammies and me are going to be real good friends for the next few days.

Looking forward to the opening on Friday, I'm sure my friends are looking forward to it too, then maybe I'll stop talking about it ;) haha!

That is all, I'm off to bed.

i'd say more green than the other day

Ahhhhh.....

I feel so relieved that the photos are up and I don't have to worry about them for a few days :) WHAT A RELIEF!

on another note, I love my friends.
When I was younger, like teenager younger, I had a few close friends but the rest, eh, it didn't bother me if they were my friends or not; I just didn't care. I've come to appreciate my friends more than anything else and I value all the great things they bring to my life. So, if you're my friend, know this, I actually do LOVE you :D

Photo by Shaun Johnson

Crash and burn

Today was another long one; I got a lot done but it never seems like enough. I think after hanging the photos tomorrow morning I'm going to clean the house and spend the next 5 days in my jammies. Yes, I said jammies; they're comfortable, don't judge me ;) as a matter of fact, I'm going to change right now ......................................

much better.
the kids are gone tonight and I almost got ready to go out but I just can't do it today; I haven't gotten enough rest for quite some time now and I need to veg out. So that's what I'm doing, pretty boring huh?

weird eyes-cool tattoo

PG-13... seriously, family beware

Okay, so it's not R rated and I have to keep telling myself that it's art, nothing but art. I really don't have anything else to say about it, I'm going to post it and NEVER talk about it again... EVER.
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Last warning, if you never wanted to know what my curves look like STOP SCROLLING!!!
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i think i'll leave it small today
like my confidence ;)

Crunchin' numbers and cuttin' mattes

I bought myself a matte cutter last year with the intention of saving a penny here and there; today will be the first time I take it out of the box :) about time, right? I'm hoping it all goes smoothly because I have four 11x17 photos to frame but it seems that frames matted to fit 11x17 photos don't exist... so I'll have to get crafty, and we all know that is one thing I'm very good at ;) However, it is short notice to learn to use this thing and do a good job so I better get to it.

I haven't eaten since breakfast and I am SO looking forward to dinner tonight; kielbasa, jasmine rice and steamed zucchini, mmmm.... I don't think I've fed the kids anything but take out or pasta for dinner in the past two weeks; time to break that bad habit.

this is my "is this good enough?" face

Big yawns

Okay, I'm pooped. I'll be glad when my apartment isn't clogged with frames and matte board and prints. Is it appropriate to bring a date to the opening night at the gallery? hm...

Got a lot done today; I hope tomorrow is more relaxing. Although....

Tonight held some pleasant surprises, I got a big smooch from BJ (apparently I'm tagged on Facebook in the act) and a smooch from Rachel (which is always fun) hahah, and another unexpected smooch... all I can say about that one is, did that really just happen? Really? No complaints here.

really?

Hermit-itis

I can feel it coming on, a case of self-induced hermit-itis; I'm too tired, too often, I need a break. I've enjoyed getting out and relaxing with friends over the past month or so but it looks like I need a new stomping ground and I'm okay with that. It's time.

It's time to take a breather from the intense stress, think more positive thoughts and get that balance back that I mentioned the other day. I think I'm going to write a book.

It's time.

too bad, so sad, time to end the chapter

Daisy hits snooze

ooohh yeah... I'm supposed to take a pic blah blah blah... once again I turn to photo booth at the end of the day... you'll laugh to know that my phone reminds me EVERY. FIVE. MINUTES. to take this damned picture from 3pm until the end of the day usually, yeah, I'm not exactly laughing... I put it off and put it off and hit snooze a kabillion times then end up taking a photo that lacks any kind of creativity that I have to try and make up for with a frank monologue.. you guys COULD give some kind of reaction here you know?! haha! I don't usually bite contrary to popular belief, besides it's hard to bite someone via the web, so you'd probably be safe anyway..

no flash photography please.... seriously, can I turn the flash off in photo booth? it's a little annoying 

Ooohhh, pretty...

I have a colorful room, I like it :)

Today was a nice day; slept in and woke up to a quiet house, grabbed a coffee and spent 4 hours with my mother-in-law (okay, so I'm divorced but she's still my mother-in-law). Picked up some cookies for Curtis and I, mmmmm, and chilled out the rest of the day. Then I had a quick visit with a buddy who brought some books over, I'm a sucker for good books :)

It's simple days like this that make me realize how much I love color in my life and I don't just mean blue, green and red. I like different faces, voices, stories, personalities.. I like variety, I love my colorful life and I'm never going to defend my love of differences again. got it? never.

I love cool cloudy days, then I can dress like this :) it's the best

Date night, solo :)

Wow, I'm getting my post in before the sun sets.. that's a first for this week. I got a pleasant surprise today, the kids are gone for the night so I'M FREEEEE! yippie! It's so foreign I don't know what to do with myself, almost. I'm taking myself out to dinner and a movie, maybe a couple drinks, maybe I'll just come home and watch more movies ;p
Today feels like a good day and it's not done yet!

feelin' froggy 

Back to balanced

TGIF.. a few weeks ago it all of a sudden became impossible for me to sleep my standard 12-14 hours on Friday night, I don't really know why but I keep waking up at 6am like I do during the week.. Tonight I plan to overcome whatever hurdle is in my way and sleep for most of the day.. By the time I get up, make coffee and get motivated Photo Market will already be closed, so I'll go pick up my photos on Monday. That means that aside from editing photos for AOK Herbals and maybe taking some new photos I'm not doing a damned thing this weekend, and I LOVE THAT IDEA. I need to get back something I lost at the end of June, it's called  balance. This weekend is going to be relaxed and productive at the same time :) Now I'm going to eat my Almond Joy pieces.. they're yummmmmy

Day 16, can you believe it?!  

Burnt out

I've been so tired for so long that I should probably have had a nice cup of tea and read my book then went to bed early. Yeah right! For some reason lately I can't seem to help but 'burn the candle at both ends'. I was going through my photos to pull a few for the North Dam Mill Gallery at the end of the month and saw a couple that weren't going to quite make the cut. Of course I just had to get in the car and address the issue. Issue addressed. I'm going to bed.

feeling run down, but didn't actually get run down :) thank goodness!

Who you callin' snarky?!

From Urban Dictionary 


1. A word that should be googled to find the definition as per direction from Dane Cook. It means short tempered or irritable.


2. A witty mannerism, personality, or behavior that is a combination of sarcasm and cynicism. Usually accepted as a complimentary term. Snark is sometimes mistaken for a snotty or arrogant attitude.


3. Adjective - Any language that contains quips or comments containing sarcastic or satirical witticisms intended as blunt irony. Usually delivered in a manner that is somewhat abrupt and out of context and intended to stun and amuse. Origin: Snark="snide remark".

Whatever, I'll take it.. Do you think there is any chance in hell I'll be able to absorb arabic better super tired and under the influence? To hell with that, I'm going to bed :)

what the fuck ever SHAUN! so I'm snarky, but I'm cool too :p

Let it shine

It's a little chilly hanging out by the Saco River and I can't wait to curl up under my blanket in bed and read some more Frank McCourt tonight. The weather man is telling me we're going to get some rain tonight, which means I'm going to sleep like a baby.

It's been a busy couple of days and my shutter release is getting a workout for sure :) I LOVE IT

this little light of mine, okay it wasn't MY light but you get the idea :D

The "place to be" wasn't very pleasant tonight

Okay, so I just spent the last 2ish hours sweating my ass off with long pants and a long sleeved fleece zipped all the way up, hiding my face in the collar. My hair was slicked with bug spray and my face, hands and feet were under constant attack by mosquitos. Haha, and if the sweat, repellant soaked hair and welts on my feet from being feasted upon weren't enough, the "place to be" smelled like raw sewage. Yeah, let's just say I went straight to the shower when I got home in hopes that the smell didn't stick to me. YUCK! At first glance my feet look sunburned where my sandals didn't cover them, nope, those are ALL BITES... I need some Calamine lotion.

All that for 89 photos, 3 or 4 of which I might actually use. I'm going to go enjoy my apricot now :)

mmmm, fruit :)

haha, non-commital :)

Okay, I'll admit, I didn't make the picture a day deadline today, er, yesterday? but since I haven't gone to bed I still consider this Sunday so THERE!! I just got home and I'm allowed some leeway on this because this is my blog and I get to make the rules. I'm going to bed...

Todays pic is by John :) Thanks John!

I deserve ice cream

Big accomplishment of the day? I took a shower and got dressed. Now I want ice cream, then back to the couch.

Have you ever done something, a simple something that you've done dozens of times before, but all of a sudden you see how pathetic it might be? When the mood strikes, I take off alone for 30 minutes or so, and treat myself to ice cream. I drive in silence, grab a tasty treat and sit in my car to enjoy it, alone. Usually I don't think twice about it; I deserve a break from the kids constant chatter. But today, it seemed a sad and lonely outing, pathetic and depressing. I'm going to take a nap now. later gaterz

feed a fever right? does ice cream count? mmmm...

There goes that idea :/

The plan this weekend was to get cracking on some photographic endeavors, it seems my body has other plans. It's been all week I've been SO tired; I'm really getting my ass kicked right now though. It's probably best if I just rest this weekend so I can hit the floor running on Monday. I'm too dizzy to even take my gear out so a big thanks to PhotoBooth on the iMac for todays picture.

I'm ill and going to lay down now :(

Bright eyes and big yawns.. it's like I'm two people

I feel a little loopy today, it's safe to say that I'm not exactly well this week; I'm grateful that tomorrow is Friday. 

Is it time to rest and get better? Probably, but I'm going to paint the living room instead :)

Hey there bright eyes!

Feelin' old

It's been hard to get out of bed this week; and nearly impossible to stay awake after lunch. 2 hour naps in the middle of the day have become part of life, it's temporary, of course. I hope :)

Feeling wiped out.

For crying out loud

Okay, I'm tired of taking pics of myself, it's official.
I'm 32 years old and I have the complexion of a teen.
Fuck you face!

Fuck you face.

Time keeps moving on

How many photos can I take of myself. Really. This is only day 5 and I'm going to need some kind of inspiration soon or I might just let it go.

I'm going to be happy when summer is over, I think. The kids will go back to school, I'll get more hours in at work and maybe then, when I'm busier than I am now, I'll stop thinking about how time passes.

The monotony of moments and drifting of days blur together with little to distinguish one week from the next. What is stoping me from living? What is it!?

WTF